September 25th, 2008
I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small. I've been drawing the line and watching it fall. You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart, watching us fading and watching it all fall apart
Well I can't explain why it's not enough 'cause I gave it all to you. And if you leave me now---oh just leave me now---it's the better thing to do. It's time to surrender, it's been too long pretending. There's no use in trying when the pieces don't fit anymore.
You pulled me under so I had to give in. Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin. Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done, but I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone.
Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel, because I've tried---yes I've tried!---still I don't know why. No, I don't know why.
Why I can't explain why it's not enough 'cause I gave it all to you. And if you leave me now---oh just leave me now---it's the better thing to do. It's time to surrender, it's been too long pretending. There's no use in trying when the pieces don't fit anymore.
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It was torture.
You talking about him.
Me thinking about you.
The rain. It's supposed to bring good memories, you said. You miss him. You hate to admit it.
The rain. It's supposed to bring good memories, I thought. I want you. I hate to admit it.
I could've cried and hid through the raindrops. But I had to hold it back. You were beside me, after all.
And it was torture.
I've been trying my best to keep my feet on the edge.
I've been trying my damnest not to fall.
And then, you.
You're busy trying to make him catch your fall.
I'm still here on the edge, but it's where it hurts the most.
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I Won't Say I Love You - Hercules OST
[Meg:]
If there's a prize for rotten judgement, I guess I've already won that.
No man is worth the aggravation. That's ancient history, been there, done that!
[Muses:]
Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'? He's the Earth and heaven to you!
Try to keep it hidden...honey, we can see right through you.
Girl, ya can't conceal it. We know how ya feel and who you're thinking of
[Meg:] No chance, no way, I won't say it, no, no
[Muses:] You swoon, you sigh, why deny it? Uh-oh.
[Meg:] It's too cliche! I won't say I'm in love
I thought my heart had learned its lesson. It feels so good when you start out.
My head is screaming "Get a grip, girl, unless you're dying to cry your heart out!"
[Muses:]
You keep on denying who you are and how you're feeling.
Baby, we're not buying. Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling.
Face it like a grown-up; when ya gonna own up, that ya got, got, got it bad.
[Meg:] No chance, no way, I won't say it, no, no
[Muses:] Give up, give in, check the grin: you're in love
[Meg:] This scene won't play, I won't say I'm in love
[Muses:] You're doin flips. Read our lips: you're in love
[Meg:] You're way off base. I won't say it
Get off my case! I won't say it
[Muses:] Girl, don't be proud. It's O.K. you're in love
[Meg:]
Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love
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We were singing this song a few hours ago.
You sang it for him.
I actually sang it for you.
Damn you! If you hate that feeling, I hate this feeling more!